And so the Wheel turns round and round…
… and brings us to Origination again.
Yule will be in 9 days. So many changes over the last year, and a lengthy list of current and future changes, leave me uncertain as to where this year is going. I am – once again – in uncharted territory without a compass. *amused* I’m getting so used to change and moving around that some stability would probably come as an unwelcome shock!
The holiday insanity that has apparently become traditional is all around me, and I’m thankful to find myself fairly well insulated from it. I don’t celebrate the season with presents. Perhaps even more importantly, I don’t have children to buy for! And since my family is all on the other side of the country, the whole family-get-together thing isn’t in the cards either. I do honor the Solstice, but even when I celebrate with others it is a very quiet and more introspective affair.
As we come upon Solstice we also approach the anniversary of my mother’s death. I waffle between a vague contempt and a matter-of-fact acceptance when it comes to my feelings for her, but every Solstice I light a candle anyway and wish her spirit well. I find real comfort in the concept of reincarnation – there’s always hope that the deceased can do it right next time. The idea that she might go to a Christian Heaven or Hell for a game-over just upsets me, but a do-over seems about right, considering.
My Lady has told me many things She wants from me in the coming year. This blog is one of them. I’m comfortable talking to complete strangers about pretty much everything else but this, and now is apparently the time to get over that last hesitation. I’m a bit nervous, but I’m game to try. I just hope that it is as helpful to readers as it should be for me!